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So I have this little BIG problem, and it is becoming increasingly more and more annoying.

I have a serious case of Philematophobia.
[the fear of kissing]

This is not a joke. I admit it sounds silly, (cause it is).
In all honestly I have enjoyed a few kisses in the past..
& I love the thought of being kissed passionately in the rain.

.. but in real life, when a boy gives you that look, and you know what's coming..
I PANIC!
My heart starts pounding,
My knees go weak,
My palms sweat,
I can't breathe.
& I flee.

It's so awkward.
& It's so annoying.

I physically cannot do it :'(.
I just want to be normal, and enjoy a freaking kiss like the rest of the world..
any advice is more than welcome,
please and thank you!